it’s a public affair

So, I can’t really say much about the past two weeks but that in my job it is the busiest ever. I have been interacting with people for 14 hours a day, so I am pretty much drop dead mentally exhausted when I get home. The whole year when I wonder what the hell I am doing here and what sort of impact I am making on anything kind of doesn’t seem so bad during this week when I can actually see some sort of small impact that I make. This week is also bittersweet because I am seeing all the exciting learning experiences and life-chaning events that happen to the students, and it makes me wonder, will I ever have that again? Can I have that again? The theme of the last two years for me have been stagnation. I mean, my professional knowledge and professional growth have skyricketed, but does that really count for something? I’d rather my personal life catch up to that. Is it too late? I feel like when you turn 30 your life automatically freezes into whatever it’s current state is and that is what you have to live with. I reaize this is a ridiculous arbitrary limitation I have set for myself, but I feel like I only have the next two years to kick things into gear.

In other news, I got Justin Timberlake’s new album and it bored me to tears.

I heard Ben Kweller’s new album and it is fantastic.

I accidentally ate cheese earlier this week and I am losing sleep over it.

I usually fall asleep with the tv on and I woke up to Fergie’s video for “London Bridge” and immediately contracted gonnorhea. Holy shit. Is this what it has come to? How is it that she can act like that and be ok with it? How can anyone find her attractive? I am so disgusted I am almost fascinated.